All this while I have been saying I wanna go back, with fleeting moments of liking it here, but since three days now, I dont know what has happened. I am realizing how much I am gonna miss some people to the point that I dont want them to go.
Today Maciek and Beata are leaving. I just went out with them a while back, and I was saying bye to Maciek, and I just could not leave. I cant get the thought out of my mind that I wont see him again. He has truly been the funniest, always making me laugh guy here. He has managed to bring a smile on my face no matter how upset I am. I just hate the thought of not seeing him again, it brings tears to my eyes. I never thought I am gonna be that upset at seeing someone leave.
On Sunday Rob leaves. The guy I bonded with in the past 2 months. He lives in North Carolina, so technically I have a high probability of seeing him, but even then its just so sad. He was my American solace here. Whenever I had tough time explaining my American slang to people, he was the one who laughed, because he got my sarcasm. We have had such amazing time cursing each other, or just making non sensical jokes. Its hitting me that its not gonna be the same anymore, that I wont see him again, atleast not for a while. I am amazed and how upset this makes me. I have an exam tomorrow, and all I can think of right now is him leaving tomorrow, and how can I spend time with him and Marie tonight so that I can make as much of it as I can.
Monday..Marie leaves. The girl who has taught me so much here, who has bared my ranting, who has made sure I am alright even when she is in a different city. She has been there like no one else, without any expectations. She lives in Qubec, so I am sure I will see her again, I just dont know when. I just cant say enough about how I feel seeing her leave. Its like taking my smiling factor away from me. My partner in crime here as I put it. If I had to pick one person here that I would like to take home with me, its gonna be her undoubtedly. Whenever I will close my eyes and think of people close to my heart, she is gonna be one of them for sure. People say you get to really know how much you value someone when you leave, and she is one person I know I would value all my life, for all that she has made me learn without even trying to teach.
I am just way too upset with these three people leaving in 2 days, and the worst part is I did not think I would be. First time in four months I want to say that, I would like to stay here only if they stay. I cant believe I am feeling that, I dont know whether its out of intense emotions and momentary or I genuinly feel that, but for now its really weird to see them leave.
On a different note, I should study. I have an exam in 14 hours, but I can only think of being with these people right now.
I dedicate these to the three people who I cherish a lot here.. Maciek, Rob and MARIE...
P.S: I am sure I gonna start writing about Aga and Asia soon. They are here till Tuesday so may be thats gonna hit me soom as well :D
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