Its all in the brain

People have emotions, and sometimes they find themselves sad, depressed, helpless, anxious and all those things. And then there are people who are in control, they probably do have these emotions, but they are very much in control. They don't really express, they don't feel the need to. They like to keep things inside, and they are HAPPY to be the way the are.

I am the former one, I feel too much. But some people (in fact one person, and he knows who he is if he is reading this), have taught me to be in control. I have learned to find happiness in any state of mind. I have learned to enjoy things for the way they are, and not find meanings to them. I know it is important to know what you are doing, and know where is it going. But sometimes may be, it just does not matter. Its all in the brain. You can make yourself believe anything, as long as you are determined. You just have to make your mind work on it. That's what I have learned.

There are some things I still can't do. I can't be completely unemotional, or completely not care about things, but I have learned to be fine. I think I can make mistakes, or do stupid things, or even things I never thought I would do, because I am young. I am just 21. I can experiment, as long as I am not killing myself or someone else. I just have to tell my brain not to care so much all the time.

Its time to not be myself. Its time to be someone I can be, or someone I think I would like to be. And yes I am trying that, and I think I am doing fine.

On a side note, the German adventure is fading away in my mind, its 2 months today since I came back, and life is getting too busy to reminisce. Sigh!