Why I love what Andrea writes

Actually I dont know, but I like what she writes.

It's kinda spontaneous, and the favorite has been the nintendo post :)

It's cool how I get to know about her random thoughts, even though I have not seen her in like 5 months now...

It's weird how I probably met her just 4 times in Germany, but still looking forward to her trip to the States :D

Some people just click.

So I know you are reading this Andrea. I can't wait to listen to all the stories about the English. You can probably write a book on the English men..

This piece from Andrea's blog is classic..

The latter reminds me of the dangerous yet charming conversational skills of mostly British guys. I think there's something cheeky, maybe even alluring, about finishing one's sentence with "hey".


The movie was good, hey?

Are you cold, hey?

Wanna go to my place, hey?

Would you like to suck my cock, hey?

How about anal, hey?


Definitely alluring.

I think she wrote it because she was pissed off.. and even though I like to keep my blog clean.. I guess this is an exception :D

And plus I miss my Manhheim mates a lot these days. It's amazing how the phrase.. grass is always greener on the other side is so true.. it makes perfect sense in most cases :D

And lastly, I hate being sick when I actually want to go to work. Having a messed up immune system is normal for me, but not when they are talking about a pandemic here and there. I know I dont have it, but sometimes it scares the shit out of me.

I am alright thought. Just wanted to put the thought across.

And yes Andrea.. I love what you right. I guess that's prolly because I know you :D

Why we do what we do

There are so many things that we do (or may be just me ), that we know we should not be doing.

We still do them. Why? What drives us to a path which is not going to lead us anywhere eventually.

I think its all because we all love to take the easy route to things, even though we know in the long run we will regret it. Being strong and doing the right thing is one of the hardest things to do, not many people I know are capable of doing that.

I thought I would always do the right thing, when I was younger (not that I am very old now), but things have changed. I take the easier paths myself. And no, I realize that I should not have later, much later, as much later when it is actually too late, but may be in the future I will do what I always believed in, taking the right paths.

When we fall in love, we want the person to love us (duh!), and sometimes we start believing that he or she might actually love you, and then we tend to do anything and everything to believe that. And that's where the problem starts. That's where you take the wrong paths, that's where the real test lies. And I think most of us fail it, because we want to believe what does not exist.

I think I am lucky enough to not get entangled in that at least. I have been fortunate to not believe a guy actually loves me even if I am in love with him or like him. Some how they always make it clear that they dont, and the so called signals dont seem to be mixed (except once, but oh well, I was actually saved by the circumstances). 

I do a lot of things because my heart tells me to do them, and I think my heart in general is right (woohooo..), but sometimes I think I should let the brain talk because it generally better sometimes, and I think I will get there.. sooner or later :)

The first time I actually fell in love or I thought that I was in love (I was 14,...lol).. I thought I could never ever do that again. But then obviously I grew up, and I realized that is not true. 

But now I feel like I am 14 again, feeling like I can not fall in love again. College has shown me so much complications and tensions within relationships, people cheating on people, one sided love, flings, hurt and so much more, I feel like I can never do it again.

May be I'll grow up (hopefully), and that would change, but its sad that I feel that way. I used to be that girl who believed that love is the most beautiful thing, but after what I have seen, I dont even know whether love exists. Whether it gets reciprocated, or whether its pure enough. I just dont know anymore.

For right now, I dont wanna be in love, I just wanna know why I do, what I do, and then not do it, if the why is the easier path. 

Hormones depress me

I dont know why women are overloaded with hormonal imbalances.

Its just not fair, how we feel intense emotions, throw a fit, act all weird just because god decided to overdose us with them.

Like right now, all I wanna do is cry, and cry real hard. And the weird part is there is totally and absolutely nothing wrong. I am at work, so I cant even cry and just let it out.

I really hate being like this, especially because I cant even reason it out. I blame it on the hormones, because I dont think I am that messed up. I dont feel like this often, and actually I dont remember feeling like this ever.

Anyways, I think I just need to sleep on it... like right now (which is not gonna happen obviously).. 

or I can watch a shahrukh movie which I just bought on blu-ray :D

I think I will do that.. hopefully I should feel better...

I like it

I like it when you say I am pretty

I like it when you say dont go

I like it when you hold me

I like it when you stay

I like it when you when you read my mind

and know what bothers

I like it when you kiss me and its all ok

I like it when you just stay

I like it how you listen

when I ramble all away

I like it how the days are just better

because you stay

But then you go

far far away

and I dont know why I ever liked it

and asked you to stay

Some lines inspired by "One Tree Hill".. because Peyton says, "people always leave" and I think she kinda is right. If not always.. people do leave almost all the time, only sometimes you really dont want them to leave.

Sigh.. Lucas came back.. but oh well only if life was One Tree Hill.

Just in case you are confused.. I am a die hard fan of the show. Never missed an episode, so basically after watching an episode I talk in One Tree Hill code and since no one was listening, I decided to post it here instead...

But seriously.... people do leave even when they know you dont want them to leave... sigh.. ahhh people!

Nice girls and nice boys

I have read so many times at so many places that nice girls and nice boys are always "the friend", they never make it any further because they are too nice to ask for what they want and then after all they are always there... since they are nice.

I don't really know many nice boys, but I know the kind. I know how girls make them run around them, and cry to them, and make them wait in line for them and make them do all that makes the girl in question a heartless person, but actually.. really.. its not entirely the girl's fault.

Niceness is taken as a sign of weakness, people try to use it, and that too very unintentionally. Just the fact that the nice person is the way he or she is, the opposite sex tends to go with the flow and just so called 'use' them.

I am nice girl, and I know I am, and I feel it. I don't feel being used, or being walked over, but I think whoever I have liked a lot in the past, has told me .. "You are my really good friend.. actually one of best friends." Its amazing how I am such a friend material, well at least that is one zone I know I fit perfectly in :)

I think being a good friend is not that bad after all. I mean if the person does not see enough in you to have more, its better to leave it at friendship whether you are a nice boy or a nice girl. Being nasty is easy, oh so easy, but being nice is not. So I think nice people should actually take pride in themselves, and not be sad about how they are always in the friends zone. So what if you are, at least that ways you make so many friends you you know are going to be there for you ...

Things work a little differently with nice boys though, they tend to get over used since girls can throw tantrums like crazy (I admit we can be beyond control). So nice boys .. I think you need to watch out for yourselves more than the nice girls. 

Anyways.. nice not nice..getting someone genuine to be with is hard.. probably one of the hardest things to achieve in today's day and age.

I wish I get there :D

Spontaneity or Impulsiveness

What's the difference between the two?

When are you being spontaneous and doing something refreshing and being appreciated, and when are you instead being impulsive and making the wrong moves?

Being impulsive is not considered to be very good all the time, but being spontaneous on the other hand, is a good quality.

Seriously, even though I do know the difference between the two, I am so sure that when I am being spontaneous, I am perceived to be impulsive. Its a thin line, and perhaps I cross more often than not.

Its not you, its me

I am sure you have heard this line above, like a million times especially if a guy is breaking up with you. 

I wonder how many times its true when I person says, nothing is wrong with you, I am the one who is messed up.

I think when people say that, they think they believe it, but the truth of the matter is, you were just not good enough. When people fall in love, or even like each other enough, there are ready to fight for it till there is absolutely no scope left. They do fight for it.

So girls, if a boy is letting you go, then its not him, it is you. I am not saying something is wrong with you, I am saying that he thinks something is wrong with you. And he will think that no matter how much you care or love. Because there is always one thing that he will find to complain about.

All I am saying or trying to say is dont let that happen to you. If someone does not want you, its not because something is wrong with you, its just because his wants are different. And then there is no point holding on to it, just let it go.

I am no lecturer or a philosopher, I just learn from looking around, and this is what I have learned. I have girl friends, whose boy friends would do anything to make them happy, and then I have those where the guy seems to just not care, and the end just seems closer every day.

Loving yourself is most important, cuz if you do that no one will ever hurt you, and you will always be loved by someone even more!!!!

Sleep woes!

I liked sleeping, I never loved it, since I was always a fan of getting those 8 hours so that I didnt look like a dying person the next day at work, or in class.

Things have changed, now I love sleep. That's pretty much all I think of, reason being I dont get much of it. Last night I got around 7 hours, and I feel like a winner. I feel like I have achieved something big, something worth bragging about.

There were days when I did all my work much before the deadline, slept well, did not stay up if I had work next morning, never experimented with the routine, and life my friend was never sleep derived.

Now, I stay up till 2, 3 or even 4, just because I feel like I can pull off work the next day on 4-5 hours of sleep. Then I walk in the next day, and being a college student and an intern, it is assumed that I party every night. Sigh!! Not their fault. I don't party, I actually don't do anything staying up that late except watch TV and or chat with the roomies, who btw are in classes and always stay up till late. But oh well, who will buy the explanation every day.

Basically I love sleep now, I close my eyes and immediately slumber envelopes me. It's like relaxation at its best, only the devil (alarm) does not like me relaxing that much.

I wonder for how long can I pull this off. All the sleepless nights, and tiring days, and then the brain which sometimes does not stop thinking. I just got to know though, that most of the people don't do 8 hours, so may be I am becoming normal. May be this is a good sign, and I will master the art of functioning without sleeping.

Awesomeness. No sleep means awesome sleep when you sleep. Ahhh.. ahhhh. ahhhh... I dont know why I thought of that. Random random.

So ya anyways, I am having sleeping woes, but I at least I am in love with sleep now. Actually I can fall asleep right now if you ask me to, all I have to do is close my eyes :D

Putting it the other way round

I think I showed off way too much in my last post.

So time to make one more list. List of people without whom I would clearly be hopeless. People who make up my life, and makes it what it is.

(I know... I know.. I give people all the credit in this world..sigh)

So some names are an obvious if you have read some posts before. I mean I talk about some of them all the freaking time.

So ya.. cheers to one more list.. (oh god.. I know if my friends read this.. they will give me the look..you know the one which says..you think too much)

Anyhoo.. (in no particular order)

• Ali
• Gauri
• Pooja
• Ankit
• Aditi
• Asia
• Marie
• Rob
• Varun
• Shaarang
• Abhinav
• Mansi
• Shreya
• Priyanka
• Garrett
• Dave
• Jessi
• Maciek

OMG! I hope I did not leave a name. That would be really sad.

So basically these people are the ones who matter a lot. I am clearly blessed. :D