I am an emotional person (that has been established by now). I don’t like to keep grudges, at least not make things awkward and weird. I can be happy with just being cordial.
All that has nothing to do with the way I feel inside. Honestly, I don’t even know how I feel, or what I feel sometimes. But I know for a fact that it takes a lot and lot of effort from my side to get into a relationship with someone. I know I just can’t unless I am crazy about the person and can’t think rationally.
At this moment, right now, at present I know I am not crazy about anyone. I am still where I was sometime ago, only I dont expect anything in return, I don’t want to fix anything, I am just happy being away from all the drama that was deeply fostered in my life. I like it like this.
But but and one more but…. I know I am not over a lot of things. I dont think I will be anytime soon. You know how they say, “there is this one time you will that craze and love, and then you may not feel it ever again,” and that’s the case for me. At least right now. I don’t know if its love, or just the loss. But I feel like that. And if its love then I swear I hate that I love you so….
This song right here, is what my life was… and this is what it will not be… or this is what I wont feel for a long long time to come…
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