In few hours from now, I am leaving. Going home in almost 2 years.
I am leaving with a hope to never make the same mistakes. Start new, and make new beginnings.
I will come back, and I will be a different me.
I wish some people to be happy, and I wish I never have to see them again, because that will make me unhappy.
I realize it, I see it, how much I don't even mean much as a friend. I see it. I know you have to make the choice once more, of keeping me as a friend or not, you will do the latter. I see it.
Still, I wish you happiness.
Still, I wish us both seperate lives that never meet.
I wish you never see me again in 2 hours from now, you never see me again.
4 comments:
hey
i've experienced a lot of those feelings too over recent months and i know it's incredibly difficult to get past those feelings
for a long time i 'needed' my ex, thought i could not live without her, she was perfect in my mind
i.e. i pedastalled her
so by putting her up so high, i was automatically putting myself below her
it's an unequal relationship, which is unhealthy and those kind of relationships usually fail in the end
so the day i stopped pedastalling her and realised i didn't 'need' her, it was like a load off my mind and the pain started to lessen
and things got better, i felt stronger and more secure, i began to realise my own self worth, my self esteem improved and my insecurities fell away
so, although it was very tough at first, by coming out of that relationship i've actually gained a lot and ultimately i'm a stronger and more confident person for the experience
and i hope the same happens for you geets, good luck!
Hey Geets, I am worried. I hope you didn't do anything stupid. Please send me an email.
I am fine Andrea,, I am home in India actually. And life is much better actually :)
And thanks so much Baz.
I know I will be fine eventually, it is just the trust factor.
I know I'll be fine though :)
Glad you're okay. I was worried.
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