Detaching

So ok. I don’t like being vulnerable. I mean who does. But I kind of hate it more than anything else I can hate. I am usually not. I think its more like never these days.

(PMS does not count)

In the recent past i have never seen myself getting affected by something very badly. I mean at least it has not been something which makes me super uneasy with myself.

(I am good like that, not being super modest..)

So when something makes me a little distressful, a little uneasy, I get so uncomfortable with myself that I just want to run away. Literally just go to a different part of the world, where I have to never ever see it again or face it again.

You can say I like to run away from emotional troubles. If someone bothers me, I block them out in the best possible way. Earlier I used to believe that I can not leave friends and being without them would be traumatizing even if they emotionally were not helping, but now I just block people out.

It is not the nicest way (obviously), but it keeps me detached and non EMO, which I would take any day over being bothered by what and why people do when they do it.

So when I hear people saying they are overly detached and they think its a sad thing. I say. Are you kidding me? Because after years and years of getting affected by people I feel awesome to be like this. (Seriously I do)

Blocking out is awesome. Don’t do shit, don’t take shit. I mean c’mon, how wrong can that be right?