Nothing in moderation

I have established that I have an ‘extreme’ personality, and I do not do anything in my life in moderation.

I should have seen the signs long before, in fact when I was 8. I remember whenever my dad got me my favorite chocolate biscuits, I could never stop after eating two, or even three, or even four. I had to eat the entire pack. Because I liked them so much, I refused to believed my stomach. And just ate.

(ok, don’t say that’s why you are fat, I am not getting there from this).

When I got a little older, my dad bought me my first video game. And I kept on playing. Playing and playing. My mom had to physically pull me out from playing Mario. I liked it. So I could not stop doing it. Even if my eyes hurt.

Then I liked a boy. My first crush. And I could not like the guy in moderation (if you know what I mean). It was like every first crush is. Only I was a little more crazy than my girl friends were about theirs.

In between all that I am became Shahrukh’s fan. And everyone who knows me, knows that I have never been a fan in moderation. I follow everything he follows. I support his cricket team instead of the one I technically should be supporting, I drink Pepsi in India because he is its ambassador. I watch all his movies. Watch all his shows. Because I am not just a fan. I am one of THE fans.

Of course when I fell in love my love was anything but normal. I shifted my priorities, changed my beliefs, became emotionally exhausted. Did everything in extremes. There was no sensibility. No brain action involved. Heart ruled all my decisions. Nothing, absolutely nothing, was in moderation.

Obviously one of my worst habits, which I refuse to talk about here, is not in moderation what so ever. I know it will kill me (probably slowly is), but I still do it like crazy.

That being said. I wonder when and how can I switch to doing things in moderation. Control my habit. Control my emotions. Listen to my body and brain when they signal me to stop. I know I should. I just don’t know if I will.

P.S: My love for cricket is also an extreme if compared to other Indian girls.