Should I be more sure?

I am graduating senior. I have spent five years in college, I feel old but not enough to be ready to settle down. I don’t know when I want to get married, I don’t even know who to marry, the thought scares me.

And then are those people from my past who know so much more. That childhood sweet heart is engaged, the guy who was my best friend in high school is getting married in December and the only guy I was in love with, is almost there.

I am not ready. I don’t even know if I can fall in love anytime soon. And all these people have their forever right in front of them. It’s so bizarre. I wonder should I be more sure??????

I don’t feel the need to be more sure.. but the ones from my past are very sure. It’s like I make them more sure of life, after me, they find the right one.

SUCKS!!

Sigh!

ok enough rant.