And just like that its all gone

Him: why don’t you do that?

Her: But I never ever did that

Him: Really? (While texting)

Her: Yeah, you always knew

Him: oh! I forget

Her: Just like that you forget what you always knew

Him: It’s not really a big deal

Her: You forget too fast

Him: I guess I do. Not a big deal as I said

Her: Is anything ever?

Him: Get over it. Doesn’t even matter anymore

Her: I am trying here, don’t have to go all mean on me

Him: I am like this (texting some more)

Her: I know

Him: Then, what’s point

Her: Didn’t think just like that it’ll all be gone

Him: Let it GO! It’s life

Her: Wow

Him: Ehhh

 

Just a weird day

You like some people. You don’t like some people. And you are just neutral towards some.

There is a way each kind affects you. The ones you like, you generally don’t want any weirdness with. The ones you don’t like you don’t care about the weirdness because you don’t like them in the first place. And then the neutral ones are the easiest ones. There is not enough interest to cause any weirdness even. It is just easy.

So I like some people too. And when there is weirdness with them for not any apparent reason it makes me upset. I mean especially there is no way of fixing it apart from sleeping on the whole incident..

Ideally it should not bother me this much. Because it is something very normal, and it happens all the time in social situations. But it does bother me. Very sadly it does.

If my brain was not thinking about it so much right now I would probably have been sleeping and not writing this. But not thinking is not working out that well.. sigh

And then there is this other weirdness. The one which is very much in my control but obviously I like to do pointless experiments with my mind and get in a loop of pointless and sometimes unreal realizations. Not cool. Not cool at all.

All in all it was a weird day. I don’t like such days. Nothing concrete happens. I end up thinking. And not sleeping. And wondering.

Oh well! Sleeping the solution to a lot of things and I am trying to do that now!

Night everyone!! or Morning?

Do not push it

I just wanna put it out there that pushing the limits is a bad bad thing. Dont do it just because it seems like an adventure. Trust me does not work at all. All it does is makes the obvious more obvious.

(Don't worry about the vagueness in my sentences)

Oh and just a weather update. The cold is not helping at all, its 23 F and I just can't do a lot of stuff I'd like to when I wanna just be random.. sigh

You

So I read this somewhere a while back, and I can not seem to remember where. But I remember somewhat of it. It is called, “You” and was written by some girl. I liked it a lot, but this is some what in my own words.

I swear no plagiarism intended.

You are special. You have been for a while. I have been happy, sad, angry, ecstatic, in heaven and in hell, all because of you.

You showed me how to love selflessly. You showed me how passionate I can be. You never said too much, But I still knew. I just looked in your eyes and I always knew. You were perfect. You were a dream come true.

You could touch me and wipe away the sorrows. You could hold me and just make everything fine. Your smile made me smile. Your sadness made me sad.

You never said you loved me but I knew you did. You never said, “Just stay” but I knew you wanted me to. You made fairy tales seem real. You made them fit in this world.

You never did anything wrong. I know you never could. You were a dream and its over. And waking up was not an option.

I see you sometimes and sometimes I don’t. There are no dreams anymore. But you are still perfect. You came and you left. I wish you hadn’t. But you did the right thing.

You are still perfect.

And it still is all about you…

This is so very intense. I am telling you the girl who wrote this was way better than I am. My modified version tries to accomplish her love, but its hard to do that being the second person.

But seriously, those three paragraphs she wrote made me wonder how can someone be so intense.

Phew….

 

Why not me?

That’s the question most people asked themselves after being in unreciprocated situations or unwanted break ups or just being hopelessly in love.

I have always heard that after you get hurt, you stop believing in the power of love. The question remains unanswered, because there is no answer, but you still wonder till it doesn’t matter anymore.

You can just accept, “It was not meant to be” instead of, “I am not good enough",” and lead a happy life henceforth. Or just spend it fixing something in your self which probably doesn’t need any fixing.

I was very nicely told by an old friend that I am too picky. I think too much before getting into anything with anyone and so that combined with my comparison issues doesn’t make it any easy for me. Unfortunately, he makes sense. Sigh!

My head knows why it was not me? But my heart with a little bit of ego will wonder for a while till it completely and absolutely doesn’t matter. It is a strange place to be in, I know it all, and yet I like to believe the otherwise.

For some reason, these are the only words I can think of right now…

And on the 23rd night

things aint bad, but things aint right

are we falling or flying

are we falling or flying

are we living or dying

I guess we’ll never know!

The Magic moment

I just came across the most amazing blog piece I have ever read. It’s called the magic moment, and it is from, “By the river Piedra I sat down and wept.”

Just read it, and you’ll know why.

We have to take risks. We can only truly understand the miracle of life when we let the unexpected manifest itself.
Every day – together with the sun – God gives us a moment in which it is possible to change everything that makes us unhappy. Every day we try to pretend that we don’t realize that moment, that it doesn’t exist, that today is just the same as yesterday and will be the same as tomorrow. But if you pay attention, you can discover the magic instant.
It may be hiding at the moment when we put the key in the door in the morning, in the silence right after dinner, in the thousand and one things that all seem the same to us. This moment exists – a moment when all the strength of the stars passes through us and lets us work miracles.
Happiness is at times a blessing – but usually it’s a conquest. The magic instant helps us to change, drives us forward to seek our dreams. We shall suffer and go through quite a few difficult moments and face many a disappointment – but this is all transitory and inevitable, and eventually we shall feel proud of the marks left behind by the obstacles. In the future we will be able to look back with pride and faith.
Poor are those who are afraid of running risks. Because maybe they are never disappointed, never disillusioned, never suffer like those who have a dream to pursue. But when they look back – for we always look back – they will hear their heart saying: “What did you do with the miracles that God sowed for your days? What did you do with the talent that your Master entrusted to you? You buried it deep in a grave because you were afraid to lose it. So this is your inheritance: the certainty that you have wasted your life.”
Poor are those who hear these words. For then they will believe in miracles, but the magic instants of life will have already passed.

Taken from Paulo Coelho’s blog

Cold waves

I am not really planning to write too much just because this is via my cellphone, but I need to write and just express my frustration wit the Arctic wave (I think that's what it is called).

So first there was recession and now its the brain killing cold. Last year people were talking about unemployment and now about the cold. These 2 are not related in any way but the kind of news they are making is similar.

It is amazing how advance we call our generations and these things still are so out of our control. We suffer without a job, we suffer in the cold. And the so called 21st century magic doesn't fix these things.

(Ok i am drifting away from the topic)

The point i was trying to make is, its just so cold. Just walking a block makes me wonder why could technology not give me a portable heater to carry with me all the time. There is no escape. Every part of the world is complaining. Is this really what global warming is? Or the weather gurus are still figuring out what really is wrong. May be after these two eventful years, 2012 will actually lead to a doomsday. Everything seems possible and so that is possible too.

(I'll miss out on so much if that happens... sigh)

All in all no matter how powerful the man kind becomes, nothing can be prevented.

And you know what's really weird. I am sitting with 7 more people in naked chocolate cafe and I can still think so much. Brain freeze. I can't hear them talking. Cold to be blamed...

P.S: this has been typed on my phone so I will have typos and spelling errors. Just putting it out there !