I think I am getting there.. fingers crossed

So last week has been the beginning of the new phase. The phase where I said I want my old life back. I feel like I have officially stepped in it. Which is a good thing. I have been trying, and at least now I know I will not fall back on the old routine.

It is amazing how this one choice that was made just re defined my whole belief system and made me stronger. It was such a lesson learned, it was god's way of telling me, "Dude, you gotta protect yourself first." 

And now at this point in time, I just know whatever it was...... friendship, companionship, care or whatever it was labelled is GONE.

(I think I am talking in a weird language, but it is hard to be specific on a public blog, and I do not want this to be private, my friends in far away lands get updated though this :D)

All I want is peace of mind (not actual peace with no people around), and I think by an estimation 4-5 months should be enough to get it in totality (no basis for estimation, just an intuition). 

And with this change come more changes. First of all, I have to find a new place to live, which means I need to find people to live with, and a place where the rent does not lead to bankruptcy. I really do not wish to pack and move again, I have done it way too many times, in the past year, but as usual I do not have a choice, and I have to do it.

(On a side note.. I think the American economy is hitting me as well :( )

And to end this, we have a song of the day, that very much says what it is:

So yeah... Jesse McCartney makes sense sometimes...lol