I do not know what to do about it. Actually I kinda do, but I dont know how to. I kinda ruined it myself by getting into it, when I knew I shouldn't have.
I am so tired of working on this by myself, I wish that someone wanted to work on this with me. Just told me, "Its going to be alright, this time I'll make it fine." Sigh.
But that is not going to happen because apparently I am alone in this (As I have mentioned earlier, I hate being alone, and I hate it even more if it's being emotionally alone).
Well the good part is though I know sooner or later it will get over, because I have been told a million times that it will. And if the good parts get over, so do that bad ones right? If I lose the long talks and happy moments (sucks to lose them), I also lose the insecurity, anxiety and the feeling of being unwanted.
(And no, I am not talking about my boy friend, because I don't have one, just to make it clear :D )
I think I am nice person (I am not bragging, I think I can say that about myself), so since nice people are suppose to get nice things, I have a list of things I want.. not a very huge one.. but yeah things I would like to have, and things which would stop my brain from overthinking.
oh well... its not gonna happen.. sigh!
2 comments:
y'know, geets
like you say, you're a nice person
you know that
and anyone reading this blog can see that too
but the thing is, try not to worry about who else thinks that or not
cos so long as YOU know it, that's really all that matters
and then all the other stuff like insecurity and anxiety, that'll gradually start to drop away
Thanks Baz!
I think you are right, I am actually trying that, and it seems like other things in life that are more important were just not seen by me, so I am trying to focus one them :D
Thanks for all those wise comments.. appreciate it
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