The life after

A week since I left Germany, on new year's eve, I am sitting alone in my apartment wondering about so many things.

Its the vacation time here, so no one is really on campus and my apartment of 6 people has just me most of the times. For some reason, I dont mind being alone here that much as much as I minded being in Germany. There is always someone to call or talk to here, or some place I can just walk out to so it is not as bad. I do miss my friends from Germany though. I really wish I could see them again.

I also have one more wish. I want everything here to come back to normal like it has been since 3 years. I dont want any sadness, any issues with anyone, any complications, I just want that amazing college life that I have had since 3 years. There is prolly no reason for me to believe that it wont be the same, but then there prolly is. Its prolly gonna be the same after everyone comes back, and I start classes, and work, but for some weird reason things seem different.

I think this is a weird phase you go through when you switch lives, and there is this mid phase where you have nothing to do but just wait for everything to fall into place. Ahhhh... I am a stupid emotional overthinking idiot. Sigh!!!!

I think I need some face to face Pooja lectures or Ankit criticism. That would certainly help. But they all have to be in their home countries when I am here. Idiots. 5 days... thats all.. then I can start afresh :)