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So you know how I have been saying there isn't much to talk about in terms of being super senti and emo stuff. I guess there is now, not something I thought I would write about.


There are very few people in your life, and you are lucky if there are any, who affect your life a lot, and without whom, it's hard to imagine it.


I don't know if I am lucky or unlucky to have had two such people in my life. One I lost, and it took me a good long while getting used to having a life without him. It was a journey in it's own way. It was a learning experience. It was a call for having a shell, being more careful, it was painful, very painful.


And now the other one is leaving, moving 1000s of miles away and that my dear readers is not sitting very well with me. I know we will still talk but it's so weird to imagine not having her around all the time. It seems unrealistic, it seems insane and more than anything it seems very very painful.


I don't think I have it in me to get used to not having her around. Not spending hours talking about pointless things. 


(I think I am going over board)


I have never ever used the term 'lonely' about my life. But I feel like, life's gonna be lonely now. 

It's not what they all think

I was told today I need to think about things beyond work by someone who sees me once a week and has no idea about my hours the other four days.


She just came to my desk and said, "I get it you are young, but making work your life will not help much some years down the lane"


And after hearing that, I seriously wonder why does everyone, and I mean everyone think, all I do is work. I do have a social life, I do manage to see some friends every now and then, I do manage to talk to family, see them some times and I do manage to fit all that, in those 2 days off I get.


All I don't have is someone to come home to, which I guess is evident with my late working hours, but why is that so very important? I am not saying, it's something I am against, but all I am asking is why is it something that is considered an important thing to have, so important in fact, that unless you are with someone, people think you are lonely.


I know some of them care, but what if I genuinely believe that I am not made for all that? I always felt that I am at my sanest without having to worry about another soul in my life (apart from my family of course). It makes me more sensible, more driven, more focussed, more at ease. It makes me free, and trust me I like it that way and I don't think I'll trade my life with anyone at this point.


So as I said, I am not saying I am this, "I don't want to be in a relationship" girl. All I am saying is I am not, "I need to be in a relationship" girl. I'd rather be sad and lonely and a workaholic girl (according to the world that is), than be with someone who doesn't love me like there is no tomorrow, and I feel the same. And that my friends is a rarity, but I don't wanna do a 'regular.'


So yeah, that's my "relationship" post after ages. Its amazing how all I get to hear is "find a boy" these days. Sigh. Especially at work.

I think I am not a blogger anymore..sigh

It's sad how I don't feel like a blogger anymore.


I mean I can go on and on about how life is busy, and there isn't much time to sit down and write a blog post, but that's not the entire reason. 


The reason I think is I don't think about anything but work. I sleep, eat, drink, walk and talk work. (Very uncool I know), and the last thing I want is to blog about it too. I don't have any complaints and some people might think it's a sad and boring thing to do, but for some reason, I don't mind it. At least, not yet.


I am pretty sure, one year down the lane, I will crave for holidays and vacations and time away from work. But right now, that's not the case. I sometimes do feel the long Mondays where I get up at 4:30 am to catch a 7:30 am flight but apart from that, this is what I wanted, and this is what I love, so if doing this means I have no life, oh well, let that be the case.


And on the bright side, (I realized that while typing this post) all this working is making me stack up loads of miles and hotel points. I already have 2 nights free with Hilton (now that should be the cool part).


But yeah, the point of my post was, how I am not a blogger anymore. This is lamest I have been in more than 2 years of blogging. A part of it is having practically no personal life, and another part, may be I was never a true blogger. 


Sigh!

Ramblings (from the sky)

Alright then. Let’s talk about how it has been so far, or may be how it’s going.

Well, I feel very lucky in some ways I guess. I actually get to love my job, not only because of the work I do, but because of the miles I collect on plans, the points I collect in hotels, the places I get to see, the people I get to meet, different assignments/opportunities I am exposed to and may be I’d just stop a bit for now.

One of my friends asked me today, if I had anything bad to say about my job. It’s funny, how  I didn’t. I know it’s not perfect and I know there are things that are drive people crazy so I tried to look from other people’s perspective and did manage to give him an answer, but me, for me it’s perfect.

I don’t know how I got so lucky sometimes. I am not super smart, or super resourceful, or super talented, but I am super ambitious, and may be that’s why I can’t stop thanking mu God and my luck when I feel I am on the right path.

Anyways, enough about work. Apparently, that’s all I talk about these days. Sigh!

So… I am flying back from Boston right now, after spending (working) four days there, and now I know for a fact Philly has way too much work to do to become an AWESOME city. It is home, but it’s not amazingly fast like NYC, or clean and pretty like Boston, or dreamy like Seattle or so many other things. I didn’t have a choice in picking cities 5.5 years ago when I was moving to the States, so Philly became home. But I do have a choice now, and may be after 2 years I’ll be able to leave and settle down in some different city in some different part of the country.

I am going to Indianapolis next (by next I will usually mean 3 days in my blog, just saying) and even though I don’t have high hopes from it, I am happy I get to see one more city. J

I have a very long list btw…

(While I am typing this, my plane is losing it, shaking enough to make me believe I won’t make it home in an hour long flight)

I wanna see Chicago, Madison(WI), Austin, Miami, Orlando, Bentonville(AR)… don’t ask me why, Santa Ana(CA), Sacramento(CA), Minneapolis, Portland(Maine) and these are just the ones I can remember while my plane is shaking.

So anyhoo…I love my job.