Places I want to go to… continued

So I just named three places I want to go to. Most of the places I want to go to are due to the fact that I have friends living there. I think them living there, just make them more beautiful to me.

Budapest

I do have an acquaintance here, and hopefully he will show me around. Also, he says that Hungarian girls are the most beautiful ones on the planet.lol. I do want to check that one out (Please don't get any ideas). The wine festivals are the catch.

 

Brussels

Who doesn’t want a taste of the Belgium beer. The Grand Place, museums and just the city as a whole. It’s all right there in this beautiful city of Belgium. And I have people I know there too :)

 

 

Durbuy

It’s the smallest city in the world, but nothing less than God’s own creation. The country side is just beautiful and this Belgium beauty is most famous for its castle. A tour on feet and the city is all yours.

 

This is still not it. There are so many more places. I wonder whether I will actually finish them anytime soon. But I shall try and keep this going, till I am out of places :)

Places I want to go to

I was never a traveler. Never ever. A home body, who always stayed in. Wanted to be with friends, could not go to a random party and just talk to people.

Now I am different. I want to see the world now, even if I have to do it by myself. I want to appreciate everything I have, and do everything I can before the whole family syndrome hits me.

I have been to Italy, and you know that if you ever read this back in October and read about my Milan and Venice trip. But I think I did not do a lot of things, and I want to do them now, and go there again.

Some places I really really want to go to:

Rome

I have been there before, and I could not believe how amazingly beautiful the city was. I roamed the entire city on my own. Just took a 12 hours city pass and a map, and got on one bus and off the other. I would really like to do that again, and actually if I could, I would move to Rome. Learn some Italian. And just live life.

Amsterdam

No I dont want to go there because I am a crazy college student, but because I missed it the last time, and I want to see what my Dutch friends are so proud of.

 

 

Poznan

Poznan is a city in Poland. People would pick Warsaw, but I picked Poznan because all my Polish friends live there. I want to see how they live, where they live, and what they do in the city they call home.

And there are so many more places that I want to go to, but I think I will continue that later. It’s going to be a much longer post than people would like it to be if I keep on going.  Trust me I am not even close to being done.

I have a dream

I have a dream, like everyone does. People say dreams don't always come true, but I want to come true, and I think I would like to do anything to make that happen.

Obviously this one requires money, like most of them, and I am still a student so getting that money might take long. But there is a saying, if you truly truly want something, the whole universe aspired to get it to you.  And I truly truly want this.

Hard work pays off, and I believe that. All I have to do now is work hard, and be focused (ok.. I sound intense.. but I have never really been so passionate about something). Wish me luck everyone. I need it.

My dream house :)

Funny stuff!

Me: I don't want September to come, so may classes, I am going to die.

He: You are almost done now with Coop, stop complaining, you'll graduate in no time

Me: I love my job

He: I am sure you do

Me: But I love school too

Me: And I love life too...lol

He: ook... you sound so fake right now, like you don't mean any of it.

He: Do you need to talk about something?

Me: ok call me after you get done with work tonight, and after listening to my voice tell me, if its fake or not.

He: You have never sounded so Happy before, it just seems weird

Me: Welll..

He: After 4 years of knowing you now, first time you are like this. What's the secret

Me: :D

He: All you need to do is find a guy who'll keep you this happy

Me: Why the hell do you always want a boy for me

He: Anyways you'll graduate with a boy friend, my guts tell me that

Me: You are hopeless..

Summer Update again

So, before the summer started, in fact much before the summer started, I had expectations and hopes from this summer.

Me: I really want this summer to be a killer

Bff: You know this always happens to you. You always expect a lot out of something/someone, and then if it turns out to be average, you are upset

Me: Well yeah! But I have a feeling its gonna be awesome

Bff: I hope so!!

And now some months down the lane, and almost at the end of summer, I have had the most amazing summer, in the history of my summers.

I met so many people, I hung out with so many of them, I travelled, I worked my butt off, I resolved certain life issues, I worked on school stuff, and there is still more to come going into fall.

I mean what else can a girl ask for. Thanks to everyone who made this summer, my best!!

I did so much, I have been so happy that sometimes I am actually scared of losing my happiness sometimes, it seems unreal sometimes.

I dont wanna go back to classes :((

I wish this summer never ends!!!

Some people just make u feel yourself

Me: So how was your trip

She: Amazing, I wish I could stay longer

Me: And what now?

She: He is just that one man who make me feel so comfortable, I dont even care whether my make up is right or how I lokk

Me: But you are not together?

She: Nope, never gonna happen. Its one of those things

Me: I think I know what you mean

She: Yes, he makes me act like me, I guess that's enough :)

Been there, done that. Sometimes this one person makes u act like u. No pretence.

Being Selfish

In today's day and world, where people want to get up the ladder, and be successful and not get hurt, being selfish is important.

But then how much of it is ok. I am not gonna brag about myself, but I am not a very selfish person. A part of it comes from the fact that I was brought in a way that taught me to think about others, to share, basically a very collective environment.

Things are different now. I feel the need to be selfish. I have realized the country, the place, the people I have come to dont really care if you are being selfless. They think you are being stupid. Which now I think, is true.

I am always so scared of god, that being selfish makes me think its gonna bite me back (ahhh.. beliefs). Now I think I should give it a shot. I am in a happy place, and since I dont want that to be threatened, I would like to be a little selfish and do what makes me happy without thinking what others are gonna think (which I always do btw)..

Lets try this one out!!!!

Songs tell (you) me a lot

This is how I figure out how strongly I feel about certain people/incidents in my life.

A lot of times, each phase of my life has a song associated with it. If the phase is nice, obviously playing the song gets good memories back, and if its related to someone I liked then playing it again lets me know whether I still feel something towards them.

And now there is the new one. I have a song which reminds me of one the worst phases of my life, and I have not played it since a long time because even though I am absolutely happy with my life, I get scared to play it because I feel like if I do, a lot of pain and hurt is gonna say.. "Hello, its been a while, why don't we talk.." sigh....

But then I just played it right now, and even though memories came back and made me a little uncomfortable, I think in sometime I will get there.

I always used to wonder after watching movies, and reading books, that how does one incidence change so much in people. I could never really get it.. until now. I think I get it now, I understand how certain things teach you so much for the good or worse, that you just CHANGE.

Coming back to the original point, songs remind me so much. From childhood memories, good times, and things that broke me down completely.

It's a good thing actually, that ways I actually figure out how much of the impact still lasts :))

Damien Rice's 'Rootless Tree' reminds me of things.... not that I get sad.. but it still has the power to remind me...

What I want from you
Is empty your head
They say be true
Don't stain your bed
We do what we need to be free
And it leans on me
Like a rootless tree

What I want from us
Is empty our minds
We fake a fuss
And fracture the times
We go blind
When we've needed to see
And it leans on me
Like a rootless...

So fuck you, fuck you, fuck you
And all we've been through
I said leave it, leave it, leave it
It's nothing to you
And if you hate me, hate me, hate me
Then hate me so good that you can let me out
Let me out of this hell when you're around
Let me out, let me out,
Let me out of this hell when you're around
Let me out, let me out

What I want from this
Is learn to let go
No not of you
Of all that's been told
Killers reinvent and believe
And this leans on me
Like a rootless...

So fuck you, fuck you, fuck you
And all we've been through
I said leave it, leave it, leave it,
It's nothing to you
And if you hate me, hate me , hate me,
Then hate me so good that you can let me out, let me out, let me out
Let me out of this hell when you're around


And fuck you, fuck you, fuck you
And all we've been through
I said leave it, leave it, leave it
It's nothing to you
And if you hate me, hate me, hate me
Then hate me so good that you can let me out
Let me out, let me out, let me out,
Hell when you're around...(Repeat 4x)

Let me out, let me out, let me out...

It's hell when you're around

(Lyrics taken from sing365.com)

What is this/

How important is your 'type'

You know how everyone has a type.. everyone generally goes for this one kind

Some boys find themselves tall blondes, while others like the short cute ones..

Some girls like the well tall built men, while others might like the boy next door look.

Infact after a while, your type becomes very obvious to your friends, and they just know which girl or guy would you go for in a lot.

Me: I dont think I can ever like this boy

Bff: Really wow

Me: He is your type, I know you think he is kinda good looking

Bff: Ummm yeah.. I have a type?

Me: Yup, he looks exactly like what you have liked before.. lol

Bff: Haha.. I have a type

The question is .."How important is the type?"

Sometime you do it without knowing, and sometimes you have these set rules. You know what you want in a boy/girl, and more than that you know what you absolutely don't want, and you will do everything in your power to not get into anything with the person because..well.. he/she has what you don't want, so even that attraction that you are seeing is not enough.

I never thought I had a type till recently, although it has changed over the years but there still is a type that I have. And unfortunately even I can't seem to get myself out it.

I never made an effort to have a type, but I guess I do. In fact I think what you don't want in a person overpowers you so much, that you are ready to not even go for some one who you are really comfortable with..

Me: She is cute, I think she likes you

He: Yeah I think she is cute

Me: So what's the prblem?

He: She is not my type

Me: She is a pretty girl, what's with the type man

He: She is ummm... not tall enough

Me: Are you serious? You will let this one go because she is not tall enough

He: I know I will have issues with that, so why get into it

Sigh!! Seriously, people always say that they are open to thing, but I don't think so. I know what kind of people I will not go for either, and even if he is the sweetest, somethings are unfortunately a turn off.

Infact my ex thought I was not his type, that's why he never wanted to get things going with me..lol..

So yeah.. type is very important, and I wonder how many people actually over come it

I don't know you anymore

I don't know how many of you are really Savage Garden fans, but I really liked them.

Their album Affirmation is one of my all time favorites. I know all the songs, and they just make sense :)

One of my favorite songs is "I dont know you anymore." And the lyrics down here, are just priceless.

Because I dont know you anymore

I dont recognize this place

The pictures frame have changed, and so has your name

We dont talk much anymore

We keep running from the pain

But what I wouldn't give to see your face again

Springtime in the city

Always such relief from the winter freeze

Snow was more lonely from the winter freeze

If you know what I mean

Everyones got an agenda dont stop

Keep that chin up you'll be alright

Can you believe what a year its been

Are you still the same

Has your opinion changed

Such emotions in their songs. It's really sad that they seperated. I was "truly madly and deeply" in love with their songs.

Does this count as flirting?

Me: Hey, so I guess this is it
He: Yeah, I can't believe summer is almost over, and I am done here
Me: Gonna miss it?
He: May be, we'll see
He (again): We never got a chance to talk a lot
Me: Well, you were only in on Fridays
He: Yeah true, I hope we can stay in touch
Me: Obviously ya, I'll facebook you
He (with the most awesome smile on his face, said some thing that for some reason I did not hear, too busy looking at the smile may be?)
He: II am gonna go now
He: Bye
He: See you soon
He: Byeeee
Me: Good Luck!!

Sigh! I don't know whether this was flirting or not, but if this was, I love it :) the only boy I actually actually wanted to flirt with since day one..lol

Fun stuff!!

This healthy, no take home mind stressing, just talking stuff is awesome.

Learn to be happy for him

I talked about certain rules in my last post. And I very well think they are true, but if you happen to be in an exception situation which only works one way, you need to learn some things so that you can let go..

If you fell so hard for someone, then obviously there is something about him that makes him so special, something that made you fight for him, something that made it what it was. And if on top of that there was a strong friendship too, then you know he is not that bad after all, if he decided to be with some one else.

It hurts, it does hurt, obviously, there is hurt, but learn to be happy for him. I am not trying to sound selfless, or over believer, but if he meant so much, it is important to see him happy.

Easier said than done I know, but trust me if you can do that, you will be happy too. You don't need to talk to him or keep in touch, but you don't have to wish bad things either, because that will just undo everything you shared. People mess up, that's all about being human, and realizing that is important. Important so that you can let go, and move on.

Think like this, if he is happy, and he has own life, he will never need you again, and you will never fall back into it. You will not need to put an effort in staying away, because he is doing that for you, and on top of everything you don't need to worry about him because there is someone else to do that.

You might think, "Why would I worry if he did that to me," well because if you loved him, caring does not go away till you see someone else doing it and being sure he is ok.

So fellow girl friends, learn to be happy for him, because was that not the point initially seeing him happy made you happy? He has someone else, and you don't have to worry about something you fought for single handily, is that not a good thing?

Is there love?

If you have ever seen, "He is just not that into you", you know the theory behind the rule and the exceptions. After seeing things around me, and being through some things myself, I have figured out certain rules, and barely found exceptions to them.

Rules

1. Love is described by comfort in today's day and age. As soon as your self interest get attacked, people leave people
2. Love is also a matter of convenience. It's a lonely world, and you need someone to be with you not because you love them, because .. well... it's just convenient
3. People don't believe in fighting for love, which you some times have to. Again the comfort factor comes into play

Those rules are very true. I am sure there are exceptions to it, but I can never really see them. I am very well the rule, and honestly I do not even want to be the exception, because I think I end up fighting alone, which is also not very good.

So friends, remember to aim for the rule, may be you are the exception, but aiming for it will just give you false hopes.

FYI -- this is not a sad post. I am just stating the facts. It's how the world works :)

Reid Rosenthal

I have mentioned Reid before. And if anyone ever reads that, they know who Reid is. He is the 3rd runners up on the bachelorrette, and I just can't stop thinking of him.

There are a couple of reasons for that:

1. I am single, and very much unoccupied by any thoughts of any boy



2. He seemed genuine on the show



3. He lives in Philly, very reachable



4. His office is in Rittenhouse square, a block away from where I work



5. Whenever Jillian let him go, or faced him she couldn't let go of him, and that is kinda..ummm.. amazing

As much as I know I will probably never meet him, I really want to. I wish I just run into him on the street once, and tell him, I adore him. I have not stopped thinking about him since the season finale, and my infatuation knows no bounds as of right now.

And yes, I am also one of those who does not truly want him to be the next bachelor (even though my brains say that should happen), because well, I think I would like to meet him first.