It's not what they all think

I was told today I need to think about things beyond work by someone who sees me once a week and has no idea about my hours the other four days.


She just came to my desk and said, "I get it you are young, but making work your life will not help much some years down the lane"


And after hearing that, I seriously wonder why does everyone, and I mean everyone think, all I do is work. I do have a social life, I do manage to see some friends every now and then, I do manage to talk to family, see them some times and I do manage to fit all that, in those 2 days off I get.


All I don't have is someone to come home to, which I guess is evident with my late working hours, but why is that so very important? I am not saying, it's something I am against, but all I am asking is why is it something that is considered an important thing to have, so important in fact, that unless you are with someone, people think you are lonely.


I know some of them care, but what if I genuinely believe that I am not made for all that? I always felt that I am at my sanest without having to worry about another soul in my life (apart from my family of course). It makes me more sensible, more driven, more focussed, more at ease. It makes me free, and trust me I like it that way and I don't think I'll trade my life with anyone at this point.


So as I said, I am not saying I am this, "I don't want to be in a relationship" girl. All I am saying is I am not, "I need to be in a relationship" girl. I'd rather be sad and lonely and a workaholic girl (according to the world that is), than be with someone who doesn't love me like there is no tomorrow, and I feel the same. And that my friends is a rarity, but I don't wanna do a 'regular.'


So yeah, that's my "relationship" post after ages. Its amazing how all I get to hear is "find a boy" these days. Sigh. Especially at work.

The Curve

When you are done dating someone or just out of a relationship and that's not by choice (basically when you are dumped), you crave and I mean really really crave an ego boost.

You want every eye to be at you. You want your ex to look at your party and feel bad for ever leaving. You want the hot boy at work/class to flirt with you. And most of all you want your curve to go up so that you can indirectly tell your, "ummm... in your face." (Ok.. being a little shallow is allowed here)

But then sometimes you genuinely start liking someone and your curve is not going up what so ever. It is a very clear "not in your face" case for the ex. And that is a sad sad situation. Because having the shallow notions you did, you are scared to materialize that liking into anything. You always wonder if that's just a rebound in making. And you hide your feelings to the fullest. Find ways to snap out of it. All because the curve is not just going up.

Sigh!!!!!

One of my dear friend says, "if your curve doesn't go up, then there is no positive addition to your life." God damn finance majors.

So since I am not around people who will make my curve go up, I wonder if i I will be a part of this dilemma or not????

P.S: post from cellphone. Will have typos.