Officially I am on vacation.
Which means I have time to think.
Which also means I think way too much about way too many, almost inconsequential things.
Which results in this crazy need to blog way more than I have in 2 years. Pheww.. wow
So... here it goes.. not making any particular sense as usual
I was talking to a friend, and talking about things in general, when she asked me, "Why don't you just blog and get it out your system." To that I response was, "Why would I do that?", to which she said, "Because that's what you always did."
Wow! I really did do that. For so long. Almost non-stop for 2 years. And then I stopped.
What does that mean? Does it mean I stopped thinking? Which is definitely not true by any means.
It only means, I started growing up, and understanding that the constant need to share information publicly is not that good after all. Also, I started working full time. A job that drives me nuts every day, but I love with all my heart.
And I am just somehow more aware of the crazies in the world. The things that people do with information (part of growing up I guess). The malice that exists. The way information can be used against you and taken out of context. All that.. scares me now.
I do know that this blog right here already in some way proves me to be an overly emotional person, but from where I am standing, this is seriously a completely open journal of me growing up. Sometimes, it makes me happy to go back and read some random stuff I wrote in 2008, and sometimes I feel like deleting it because I sound like an unstable college kid who spends her time worrying about stupid things. But all in all, it's my journey . It's a part of my life. It's MY crazies.
(Just wanted to say all that. Not being defensive, just random!!)
Which means I have time to think.
Which also means I think way too much about way too many, almost inconsequential things.
Which results in this crazy need to blog way more than I have in 2 years. Pheww.. wow
So... here it goes.. not making any particular sense as usual
I was talking to a friend, and talking about things in general, when she asked me, "Why don't you just blog and get it out your system." To that I response was, "Why would I do that?", to which she said, "Because that's what you always did."
Wow! I really did do that. For so long. Almost non-stop for 2 years. And then I stopped.
What does that mean? Does it mean I stopped thinking? Which is definitely not true by any means.
It only means, I started growing up, and understanding that the constant need to share information publicly is not that good after all. Also, I started working full time. A job that drives me nuts every day, but I love with all my heart.
And I am just somehow more aware of the crazies in the world. The things that people do with information (part of growing up I guess). The malice that exists. The way information can be used against you and taken out of context. All that.. scares me now.
I do know that this blog right here already in some way proves me to be an overly emotional person, but from where I am standing, this is seriously a completely open journal of me growing up. Sometimes, it makes me happy to go back and read some random stuff I wrote in 2008, and sometimes I feel like deleting it because I sound like an unstable college kid who spends her time worrying about stupid things. But all in all, it's my journey . It's a part of my life. It's MY crazies.
(Just wanted to say all that. Not being defensive, just random!!)
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