I am all grown up :O

It’s hard to stay away from something so close to you even though you don’t seem to have much time for it.

Now, I know I can shut this down, and not rant (primarily because there isn’t much to rant about) and one less thing to maintain, but it’s hard.

So I am here, trying to figure out the best way to keep this going and give it an hour a week or some more. Shouldn’t be that hard, all I need is some time management skills (which I technically should have).

I went into the corporate world thinking I know what comes next owing to three odd internships I had done before. But here’s the catch, you don’t know what it’s like to work full-time till you actually get there.

First and foremost, it is overwhelming and confusing. There is so much you want to accomplish, there is so much you think you know and there is so much you believe is doable, but my friends, it’s a whole different ball game. It is a feeling of a suddenly growing up and being expected to know it all in a certain way, without really knowing it all. No matter how much you study in college, so many things are absolutely and totally new. Every mistake is scary, every step is crucial and every action is noticed.

And on top of all that you are trying to get together your social life, locate your missing friends, balance out the weekdays and the weekends. I am not complaining, because I love my job, but suddenly the importance of weekends is huge in my life, seeing some friends is extremely cheering and being able to manage time between work, work at home and friends is challenging.

I feel lost in a way. I know I don’t want to go back to school, I know I am ready to prove my abilities to corporate America, but I feel oddly old, and forcibly responsible.