Right or Wrong?

Obviously I don’t know all the time what’s right and what’s wrong? I try to figure it out, but sometimes it is just very hard to figure it out. So many opinions, so many view points, so much of everything. How do you even know what’s the right thing all the time?

I guess you just don’t.

But then can we do something that we think will make things easier for us? Whatever the situation is? Whoever gets hurt? Just do what makes us happy?

I know the fact that some people are getting hurt by it is wrong on its own, but then we gotta be selfish sometimes. People probably have been selfish with us at some point in time, and so, we can probably do the same…

Right?

I am not so sure… sigh

Even if being selfish is making you think that something , somewhere is wrong then you are not as happy after all. I believe so much in Karma that doing wrong things just makes me justify the wrong done to me, and I don’t want no wrong anymore…

Basically sometimes you just don’t know what to do. And you still have to do something, and since my heart works more than the brain, I will think a lot about either decision I make.

Am I making sense? A little bit? May be?

I don’t know. This is like talking out loud to me. I don’t make sense to most people on normal days in any case.

Anyhoooo….

Time for class!

Sex and the City

How many of you people (ok girls) out there have watched the show religiously. Wanted to have a shoe collection like Carrie’s or be as charming as Samantha or be as pretty as Charlotte (I find her very pretty) or be as lucky as Miranda. I am thinking a good 90%.

(No I don’t have any stats, just pure girl assumption)

So anyhoo….

Sex and the city is this personified version of what kind of life a city girl wants to lead. They want it all. Shows, clothes, boy friends, everything. I was always so fascinated by it that as I teenager I thought everyone in a big city is like that (ok ok.. just NYC).

That is not very true to me now, but for some reason, I do aspire for that. Not the many boy friends part, one would do, but the other parts. Being successful and having it all, and having those close girl friends who stick by no matter what, is what I want.

I know television is messing with women brains, but why not????

If I can actually achieve that I am sure my shoe closet is going to be bigger than Carrie’s …. sigh (I love shoes).

All in all I can’t wait for the second movie. Watching it on screen again. The trailer does look promising…

Lets here it for New York – Alicia Keys

Do I brag?

I was going over some posts that I wrote and suddenly it dawned on me that sometimes I probably come across as someone who praises herself, even if its not in your face praising.

Very honestly (like seriously), I don't really do it intentionally. I try and say things the way they exactly seem to me and I guess that a lot of times that ends up making me sound super pompous.

But just to put it out there, I do not BRAG. About anything that is. And if sometimes I come across as someone who does, please let me know. Leave a cpmment... even if anonymous. Say I am being lame. I mean I will get itsy bitsy hurt but Wth.... a girl's gotta do what she gotta do to make it right

Anyho....

Classes have begun. Emails are pouring in. Texting is on. Job hunt is super on. Life my friends is GOOD.

Finally Summing up Fall 2009

Summer was unbelievably amazing. I have already established that very very very nicely. It was hard for Fall to beat it, given that I did not enjoy the same benefits as Summer.

• I did not have a full time job, hence way less money
• I was in classes, hence way more work
• The weather was not as awesome
• And few other random reasons

But no complaints. Life was good never the less.

September 2009

Started extremely slowly. The first two weeks were very boring in general. Some of my friends were leaving for vacation since school was off. I did not do as much socializing as I usually did before that. Coop was coming to an end, and I was not looking forward to that. I enjoyed every bit of that, and it was hard to put an end to my six month long internship.

Some of my friends were coming back from vacation. Seeing them made me extremely happy.

18th September was my last day of work. My co workers threw the most incredible farewell for me. Bought me gifts, cards and what not. I felt like I achieved something, made some good relationships when I left. So far the best experience ever.

I went to Portland the next day to visit my friend. Spent 5 days in Portland and a day in Seattle. Reconnected with my friend who I hardly see. I had an amazing time there. I was missing week one of classes, but that vacation was beautiful. Portland is so beautiful, I can’t believe it is not as popular on tourist lists.

I came back on the 26th and was bombarded with school work. I actually wanted to stay in Portland for a bit longer. I swear Who knew Portland is Paradise.

October 2009

I went to Tuscan, AZ for a conference with my organization. Hmmm… what can I say about that place. A very small city with cacti everywhere. It is so different from anything that I have seen that I really did not know what people could do there.

I did not see much of the city, but the experience was amazing. 8 of us girls from Drexel had loads of fun and met loads of women in technical fields. The weather was perfect. The resorts were extremely lavish, and all of it for free :)

I came back on the 4th of October after a 3 day trip and then the regular busy season with classes and work. Met a few more people, made more friends. Time flew by. It just raced against itself.

I celebrated one of my very good friends birthday.  She is one hell of a kind girl, and she deserved it. Her face when a bunch of us showed up at her door steps was PRICELESS.

November 2009

The time when my excitement levels came down after some months and I started wondering why things that happened even happened. I missed old friends, I missed Germany and I missed a lot of things in general. It started getting colder and so obviously more time inside and more thinking.

Overall a very uneventful November but happy never the less.

December 2009

The month of birthday and only birthdays. All of my close friends for some reason decided to be born in the same month and near the finals week and make sure I lose it.

I was a part of too many cakes and surprised looks and that made me happy.

For my best friend’s birthday I was ordered to go to Vegas, and man I loved it. It was just beyond my imagination. Vegas is truly a place to be at. 3 days in Vegas style, what else can a girl ask for.

The last 2 weeks were drastically boring. I am not a vacation person. I cant sit idle and boredom got the better of me. I couldn’t wait for January, and now that January is here, I am ecstatic.

Overall, Fall was just normal which actually is pretty darn different from the entire year :)

Just a thought

Remember how I always stress on time. It’s the time when I am questioning time.

Time is not playing well with me.

Either it needs to tell me what, when and where.

Or it just needs to fly like it always does.

I can’t wait to be busy again. How do people actually deal with having nothing to do. Beyond me.

The thought is.. Time is not playing nice. I know I should give it some credit, which I do. But over all, its time for time to do some nice love dovey things.

Ok, I know you are thinking I am not making much sense. But If you remember anything I say (write), you will know what I mean …..

Time is still taking too much time…..

What makes a blog be out there

I have been blogging since almost 16 months now (OMG, that just dawned on me), and I have understood a few little things about the blogging world and what really makes one blog worthwhile.

1. First and foremost the readers matter the most. If no one is reading your blog, then in most likely hood you will give up eventually.
2. Readers matter and so you should make sure you know your demographic. It’s hard to please everyone so don’t expect everyone to like what you write
3. Don’t stop just because you don’t have any comments ever. Trust me there are so many of those readers who will never ever comment but read it all the time.
4. Be patient. It takes a lot of time for your blog to be noticed. It is a slow process. The internet is filled with blogs and it takes a long time to get a loyal readers base.
5. You know your blog is making some progress when Google finds it with some search terms. Trust me that’s huge. Took mine 16 months to make it there.

The bottom line is. Start writing for yourself first and then don’t stop. Life is busy, you have stuff to do, but once you find a place here, trust me everything else will follow.

(Google search just made me super excited and I feel pretty pretty cool right now)

16 months and still going. And I hope to go on.

A very Happy new year

A very very happy new year to all of those who read this.

(I know there are few)

Hopefully 2010 will be better than 2009 (I remember thinking the same in 1999). We are in a new decade and things will only get better from here (Hopefully)

Everyone in general has some resolutions. One of my friends told me he wants to be more ‘in touch’ with people this year. Then the other wants to be less emotional.

Some want to lose weight (which includes me), and some want to start afresh. There is something that everyone really wants to.

What is it about the new year that makes people start all over again? After all its just a date change.. ain’t it?

Honestly, I really don’t have any resolutions or any beginnings. It’s all the same it has been for a while.

I just want to not make the same mistakes, not get hurt, not hurt people, get an awesome job, make money, be happy. The same things I wish for everyday.

But it’s 2010. The year where I will leave college for good. The year I will enter the world. The year where I have to start, somewhat all over again. The year of new beginnings.

So I hope and pray this year at least, I can start all over again. Meet more people, make more friends, keep in touch with the old ones and be strong.

Not too much to ask for eh?

So once again a very happy new year..and a very happy new decade :)