This country just looks beautiful :)

very very random.. please excuse this

You never even said it, and I kept on hearing those words

For no reason I kept on dreaming

i dont know whose evil eyes has touched me, this city is not mine anymore…

The pain is more than before, so then I promised myself

My eyes will never speak

Nothing affects me anymore

My life partner, is not mine anymore

He kept on goin away, he kept on touching my soul

For no reason i kept on dreaming

Then after months I saw him again,

I started thinking again, the shadows of past haunted me

You are so fine without me

That world that I had left, came back to me

For no reason I kept on dreaming

yet again

Empty house

As everyone and anyone who reads this blog of mine knows by now that I live with a lot of people. Usually my house is filled with people, and someone or the other is always over apart from the usual six who live here. It’s basically very lively.

This long weekend was different. It was just me, most of the times in a house of 6 people, and guess what I did not mind it what so ever. I am back to being myself, and loving to just sit on my computer and watch a million movies without feeling lonely. I spent three days doing that, and it was not bad at all.

I know I brag about changing a lot, and please excuse me for that. But I think I myself, can’t believe that I am fine. (Funny Funny). I never thought it was possible, so I guess I can not stop talking about it……

But soon, its all gonna change. People are gonna start coming back, and filling up the house. Sigh! Well I think I will like that too, I am used to having a full house, so sooner or later I would want that to happen anyhoo!

The bottom line.. weekend was awesome :D

This summer is coming to an end

For the past two months, all I have done is thank my god for making this summer the most carefree, happy and simply a beautiful time of my life.

I took care of some pending things, and I made some strong relationships. I know I have achieved something because people see it in me. As the summer is coming to a close, and people are coming back to school, things are going to become like they always were in some way or the other.

He: Wasssup. Long time

Me: I know, how have you been?

He: Good. And you?

Me: Happy as ever. Life is awesome, what else can I ask for

He: haha! Is it.. really?

He 2: Why are you so happy?

Me: Ya so.. I love summer man..

He 2: But wait, why are you so happy, what happened? You were always the serious kinds before

Me: Lol! I don’t know! I just am

So basically, people notice it. And that’s a good thing. I have been so serious before that may be I was kinda boring. And as the summer is coming to a close, I hope all that doesn’t come back.

I really wish nothing changes from this point onwards. I love to just be the way I am at this point in time, and I do not want to be serious for a long long time to come ….

Things I would like to do when I am done with school

Since a better version of me was born this summer. A version which refuses to adhere to EMO stuff, and makes me more outgoing, I have a wish list. Absolute random things I would like to do before the whole family life brings me down

• Live in Paris/Rome for a year. Work there, learn some stuff, make a million friends
• Try to find a job somewhere in Europe and not just be confined to America. How about London?
• Do not get hitched anytime soon. Not before 30. (Which means do not get emotionally involved with any guy what so ever)
• Do something adventurous. A safari in Africa may be.
• Meet Reid.. (random.. very random)
• Make sure Gauri and Pooja are in different states/countries/cities, so that I have a vacation spot
• But a house in Delhi (you all know this one)

Basically just live it up!! Be sexy. Be fun. And forget all the drama.

(OMG, I am planning too much)

A true love story

Since I am the fairy tale types, I like to start stories like that. This is not a Cinderella story, or that of beauty and the beast, but its something to write about. Boy meets girl, and then meets one more. It’s something that happens, and something that may be will not end with a ever after.

Once upon a time there was a boy. A boy who came far far away in search of happiness and freedom. He did not make any friends initially, and did not meet many people. His life was in his house, and his hopes were not too high. One fine day, he met this girl, who swept him off his feet. His life changed, his heart changed and so did everything around him. He made more friends, in the hope of seeing her, in the hope of being with her, in the hope of hoping more. Little did he know that dreams don't come true. And the girl touched him like breeze, and went away in a jiffy.

The boy spent days and nights wishing she would come back. Wishing she would be his. His days seemed unbearable and nights seemed too long. His heart ached, and his mind wandered. Love was it? He did not know. Every mistake she made seemed worth forgiving, even when she kissed someone else. Time did not seem to go that fast, alas, time was taking its time.

Since this is a modern love story. Rebounds work. So naturally he found one.

(The story ahead can not be fairy tailish, since in modern days, telling a true story is hard like that… sigh)

The twist is though, he is her rebound too. Now the question is … is this love? They are together sometimes, they are not together the other times. He wants to make this one work, but she isn't sure. He wants to be there, but she sometimes runs away. He doesn’t want to get hurt again, so he tries to take it easy. But may be he isn’t made for easy? But does he love her?

So many questions, but the song of his life is …

This is very random. I know. But this is to my dear friend who is always messed up because of women.

I don't think this is love. This is just a true story.

September 1, 2008 to September 1, 2009

Today it’s been a year since everything started happening in my life. A year since I left for Germany, and this blog started. A year since everything started changing in my life, a year since I met all those people that I cherish a lot in my life, a year since I fell in love and eventually stopped believing in it.

I remember I year ago today I was all packed and hating the fact that I have to leave. I knew I would miss someone a lot, and not be able to enjoy as much. I was leaving with hopes of coming back as soon as I could, and I never really left Philly even when I was in Germany. never did.

I have come a full circle in this one year. Trips, falling in love, making more friends, loving my job, being in Europe, heartbreak, everything has happened. This is when it all started, this is now its almost ending.

Some Love..

(Thanks to Paro.. this video just defines the whole love..)

Some memories …

Some pain …

And that’s how the year has been. And it’s ending with some lessons, some plans, some realizations, some judgments and most of all, loving me like I have never done before.