One more list!

This is a list of all those hopeless lines said in a million romantic movies that I unfortunately I believe in somewhere deep down inside (yes yes I know what you are thinking)..

• If you love someone, let them leave, if they come back then they love you, else it was never meant to be
• Love makes you cry, it makes you sad, but most of all it gives you the happiness that can never be surpasses
• There is no thing like love at first sight, but there is love forever
• "I think of you every time a breathe, I wonder whether you do it too, because if you do then honey I am never going anywhere"
• Growing old together is all I need
• Love and friendship always go in hand in hand, if you can find your best friend in the one you love, that is match made in heaven
• "I think I am pretty much screwed for loving you."

I can think of others, but these are the ones I like. Hopeless hopeless.
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Things that make me happpy :D

Since I am a normal human being, there are some things that make me happy :D
Actually I think there are a lot of things, but still since I seem to forget it a lot of times, I thought I'll share.. :D

• Shahrukh. The man just makes me happy, I mean all he has to do is appear on screen
• Mommy. Have not seen her in almost 2 years. The thought of seeing her makes me happy.
• Friends back home. When they call every month even though I tend to forget. Abhinav, Shaarang, Mansi, Rupa and Aakriti
• Guitar Hero. Playing it with some certain few at a certain place makes me happy.
  
• Being random makes me happy.
  
• Talking to Asia makes me happy
• Seeing Rob after so long made me happy, and I realize how seeing Marie in summer will make me happy

I think I make too many lists. lol!!!

This is one of my random being happy moments. hehe. I just am.. dunno why. I would love it to last all through finals week.

Patience is indeed a virtue!

So yes I am impatient. I do not possess the special quality PATIENCE. And I just figured that out.

Some certain events in my life just made me realize that. I freak out way to easily and then I say/do things which later I realize could have been done differently.

The thing is though, how do I gain patience. How do I develop the qualities that can teach me to calm down, and learn to wait. Not forever, but at least for a while.

I think a lot of impatience comes with being pessimistic. I tend to think that if I don't solve an issue right then and there, then it can never ever be solved. I think only bad stuff will happen, since I am unlucky with a lot of stuff, and then I make situations worse.

Well, at least I realize that now. I mean that is step one, aint it. :D

So ya.... I hope I fix this. Even though I think I am too old for any amends. lol!

I never knew!

I never ever knew that I was capable of being extremely outraged by something that in reality might not even exist.

I am a girl, and possess all feminist qualities, and hence emotions come in bundles. I am impatient with them, I need to burst them out right there and then. That usually is not a good idea, because then I say things I regret.

Being calm and cool is the key, but I have to talk every damn thing out. I wish I could just stop that. Things do need to be talked out, but some things just need time. Some things just need to flow, and reach the end on their own. Some things are never meant to be discussed.

So I want to change one more thing about me now, the need to talk it out all the time. The need to know all the time, and learn to just let it be!!!

On a side note, I love how vague I can be here. It is kinda awesome.. haha. I reach the surface but never dig in deep. I love blogging :D

And please excuse the typos in this one. I am using stupid IE!

And then I dreamed!

A girl can dream, a girl can hope, and a girl can wish, but what's the point?? Sometime I really want the stars to shine as bright as they could, sometimes I really want it to rain, sometimes I want to be loved like there is no tomorrow, and sometimes I just want to leave, even if I could not.

I think of the life I can have, and see so many amazing things around, so many amazing people around, but even then sometimes I dare to dream. It seems like nothing you have is enough, and there is always this want.. when all u need is the need.

Today, at this very moment, I want certain things. Certain things that will make the world seem so much better, even though I do love my present world. I see so many nice things around, I see so many things that I cherish, but want to see some more love around. Whatever happened to falling in love and being crazy in love.. to commitments.. to passion... to adventure.. to doing the stupidest things.. to following your heart.

Everyone around me seems to be doing the right thing for themselves, things that will take them places, and things that will not call them stupid. May be those people are following their hearts, or may be they are just too scared of getting hurt, or of being laughed at.

I dream to have that craziness around me where people follow their heart, and just do things because in their heart they are just falling in love and loving it. I have been hurt, and may be I will be hurt again, but still I see the beautiful, I try and follow my heart (not that it happens all the time, after all I am part of the crowd), and I wish..I dream.. I love!!!!

Happy Birthday Ali!!

Finally you are 21 today, so I think there are certain things I should tell you.. since you are an adult and all :P

• You are totally legal in America. Please be responsible and try and not be a douchebag all the time
• Treat us all too good food, you are the last one to turn 21, and it was kinda a pain to our plans all this while
• Stop being an ass hole (You know I still love you), and be nicer to people
• Your mood swings are way more weird than a girl on PMS. I think you should do something about those :P
  
• Start sleeping more. You look like a freaking zombie. God knows what you do staying up all night, although you say you study.
• Surprise us. Do something out of your league.
• And I think some other things.. I can't think of right now.

But seriously.. a very happy birthday to you. I don't know about others, but me and Pooja love you. 10 years down the lane, your kids are gonna be proud of you for having friends like us, since we'll be the only one teaching them cool stuff (don't worry nothing that you don't approve).

Its all in the brain

People have emotions, and sometimes they find themselves sad, depressed, helpless, anxious and all those things. And then there are people who are in control, they probably do have these emotions, but they are very much in control. They don't really express, they don't feel the need to. They like to keep things inside, and they are HAPPY to be the way the are.

I am the former one, I feel too much. But some people (in fact one person, and he knows who he is if he is reading this), have taught me to be in control. I have learned to find happiness in any state of mind. I have learned to enjoy things for the way they are, and not find meanings to them. I know it is important to know what you are doing, and know where is it going. But sometimes may be, it just does not matter. Its all in the brain. You can make yourself believe anything, as long as you are determined. You just have to make your mind work on it. That's what I have learned.

There are some things I still can't do. I can't be completely unemotional, or completely not care about things, but I have learned to be fine. I think I can make mistakes, or do stupid things, or even things I never thought I would do, because I am young. I am just 21. I can experiment, as long as I am not killing myself or someone else. I just have to tell my brain not to care so much all the time.

Its time to not be myself. Its time to be someone I can be, or someone I think I would like to be. And yes I am trying that, and I think I am doing fine.

On a side note, the German adventure is fading away in my mind, its 2 months today since I came back, and life is getting too busy to reminisce. Sigh!