One year ago on January 31, 2009, I promised myself that the next Ball will be different. Balls are events where you get to pick a dress and look nice. Shop for shoes and just have a good time.
But sometimes not so much….
I was dependent for happiness. I just wanted a fairy tale ball. My dance. My attention. My everything. And it was nothing of that sort. It was the beginning of a new life for me. It was what started the change. It was what kick started everything new.
On January 31, 2009, I promised myself that 2010 would be different. I will have every dance I want. I will smile if I want. I will not look for just one person. I will not be in love if that’s what it takes.
And January 30. 2010 was different. It was my last ball as I know it. And it was my best ball. I knew everyone. I danced with everyone. I smiled with everyone. And I was not looking for anyone. Anyone at all.
Everything seemed so much better. There was no pain. It was just about me. My happiness was not dependent. I was just me….
So one year later everything new makes my life better. It makes me think about me. It makes me independent. It makes me smile. It makes me ME.
This one is to my last Ball
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