It's not what they all think

I was told today I need to think about things beyond work by someone who sees me once a week and has no idea about my hours the other four days.


She just came to my desk and said, "I get it you are young, but making work your life will not help much some years down the lane"


And after hearing that, I seriously wonder why does everyone, and I mean everyone think, all I do is work. I do have a social life, I do manage to see some friends every now and then, I do manage to talk to family, see them some times and I do manage to fit all that, in those 2 days off I get.


All I don't have is someone to come home to, which I guess is evident with my late working hours, but why is that so very important? I am not saying, it's something I am against, but all I am asking is why is it something that is considered an important thing to have, so important in fact, that unless you are with someone, people think you are lonely.


I know some of them care, but what if I genuinely believe that I am not made for all that? I always felt that I am at my sanest without having to worry about another soul in my life (apart from my family of course). It makes me more sensible, more driven, more focussed, more at ease. It makes me free, and trust me I like it that way and I don't think I'll trade my life with anyone at this point.


So as I said, I am not saying I am this, "I don't want to be in a relationship" girl. All I am saying is I am not, "I need to be in a relationship" girl. I'd rather be sad and lonely and a workaholic girl (according to the world that is), than be with someone who doesn't love me like there is no tomorrow, and I feel the same. And that my friends is a rarity, but I don't wanna do a 'regular.'


So yeah, that's my "relationship" post after ages. Its amazing how all I get to hear is "find a boy" these days. Sigh. Especially at work.

I think I am not a blogger anymore..sigh

It's sad how I don't feel like a blogger anymore.


I mean I can go on and on about how life is busy, and there isn't much time to sit down and write a blog post, but that's not the entire reason. 


The reason I think is I don't think about anything but work. I sleep, eat, drink, walk and talk work. (Very uncool I know), and the last thing I want is to blog about it too. I don't have any complaints and some people might think it's a sad and boring thing to do, but for some reason, I don't mind it. At least, not yet.


I am pretty sure, one year down the lane, I will crave for holidays and vacations and time away from work. But right now, that's not the case. I sometimes do feel the long Mondays where I get up at 4:30 am to catch a 7:30 am flight but apart from that, this is what I wanted, and this is what I love, so if doing this means I have no life, oh well, let that be the case.


And on the bright side, (I realized that while typing this post) all this working is making me stack up loads of miles and hotel points. I already have 2 nights free with Hilton (now that should be the cool part).


But yeah, the point of my post was, how I am not a blogger anymore. This is lamest I have been in more than 2 years of blogging. A part of it is having practically no personal life, and another part, may be I was never a true blogger. 


Sigh!

Ramblings (from the sky)

Alright then. Let’s talk about how it has been so far, or may be how it’s going.

Well, I feel very lucky in some ways I guess. I actually get to love my job, not only because of the work I do, but because of the miles I collect on plans, the points I collect in hotels, the places I get to see, the people I get to meet, different assignments/opportunities I am exposed to and may be I’d just stop a bit for now.

One of my friends asked me today, if I had anything bad to say about my job. It’s funny, how  I didn’t. I know it’s not perfect and I know there are things that are drive people crazy so I tried to look from other people’s perspective and did manage to give him an answer, but me, for me it’s perfect.

I don’t know how I got so lucky sometimes. I am not super smart, or super resourceful, or super talented, but I am super ambitious, and may be that’s why I can’t stop thanking mu God and my luck when I feel I am on the right path.

Anyways, enough about work. Apparently, that’s all I talk about these days. Sigh!

So… I am flying back from Boston right now, after spending (working) four days there, and now I know for a fact Philly has way too much work to do to become an AWESOME city. It is home, but it’s not amazingly fast like NYC, or clean and pretty like Boston, or dreamy like Seattle or so many other things. I didn’t have a choice in picking cities 5.5 years ago when I was moving to the States, so Philly became home. But I do have a choice now, and may be after 2 years I’ll be able to leave and settle down in some different city in some different part of the country.

I am going to Indianapolis next (by next I will usually mean 3 days in my blog, just saying) and even though I don’t have high hopes from it, I am happy I get to see one more city. J

I have a very long list btw…

(While I am typing this, my plane is losing it, shaking enough to make me believe I won’t make it home in an hour long flight)

I wanna see Chicago, Madison(WI), Austin, Miami, Orlando, Bentonville(AR)… don’t ask me why, Santa Ana(CA), Sacramento(CA), Minneapolis, Portland(Maine) and these are just the ones I can remember while my plane is shaking.

So anyhoo…I love my job.

The After-Life list

So now that I am clearly not in college anymore, and I clearly don't feel like being in one anymore (not yet at least), there are few things I would like to talk about the after life.
It's been way too long since I made a list, and this is my list for the after life, or some things that I realized (I sorta knew them on paper before) after finishing almost a month at work

• Weekends are sacred. Friday nights and Saturdays are the only two days where you can truly just do anything without wondering about tomorrow so much. You cherish them even more because you get to see your friends rarely, and those are the only two days you really get to see them
• Alarms are your best friend. You can never mess up with them, and I mean NEVER. The more alarms you have, the better it is for your time management skills to improve
• Watching your mouth becomes pivotal. No matter how chill your workplace is, you gotta cut those curse words out, you never know who gets offended and that habit eventually creeps in your personal life (not drastically, but somewhat)
• You make more dentist appointments and now you can afford to more than ever. Work benefits package are the best thing to happen to people in USA. Dentist visits are almost a part of your calendar and accepted very nicely at the work place
• You have new drinking friends. Happy hours exist for a reason and the reason is for all those people who work together and bond outside of the office with the help of alcohol, because nothing brings your guard down like some good ol' alcohol
• Suddenly you can't be in bed till noon on a weekend. Early to rise is your new mantra, even if early to bed doesn't work that well
• You can actually afford to spend $100 bucks on an expensive dinner every once in a while without planning it out way in advance. (This may have some limitations)
• Most of all you realize you are getting old, when people around you talk about getting married and having kids all the time.. sigh

And this is me talking in less than a month. May be after few more, I'll right a whole long essay on why people hate being single when they start working, I hear that one all the time.

So yeah, I have a life now, not much to complain about yet. I am content. That's a lot to have I guess.

I am all grown up :O

It’s hard to stay away from something so close to you even though you don’t seem to have much time for it.

Now, I know I can shut this down, and not rant (primarily because there isn’t much to rant about) and one less thing to maintain, but it’s hard.

So I am here, trying to figure out the best way to keep this going and give it an hour a week or some more. Shouldn’t be that hard, all I need is some time management skills (which I technically should have).

I went into the corporate world thinking I know what comes next owing to three odd internships I had done before. But here’s the catch, you don’t know what it’s like to work full-time till you actually get there.

First and foremost, it is overwhelming and confusing. There is so much you want to accomplish, there is so much you think you know and there is so much you believe is doable, but my friends, it’s a whole different ball game. It is a feeling of a suddenly growing up and being expected to know it all in a certain way, without really knowing it all. No matter how much you study in college, so many things are absolutely and totally new. Every mistake is scary, every step is crucial and every action is noticed.

And on top of all that you are trying to get together your social life, locate your missing friends, balance out the weekdays and the weekends. I am not complaining, because I love my job, but suddenly the importance of weekends is huge in my life, seeing some friends is extremely cheering and being able to manage time between work, work at home and friends is challenging.

I feel lost in a way. I know I don’t want to go back to school, I know I am ready to prove my abilities to corporate America, but I feel oddly old, and forcibly responsible.

Should I end it?

First week of work.

I finally have a life now. I can’t say “yes” to hanging out to people all the time. I wake up before 7 am and go to bed by 1 am.

Who knew?

So anyhoo….

I haven’t been writing much lately. And I have a feeling it’s gonna be like that. Not because I don’t want to, but because I see work being my life now, and I don’t know whether there will be much to ponder here

But hey, I can’t complain, that’s why I always wanted :)

So I have been thinking if I should just stop after over 2 years of blogging. Should I just shut this down?

It seems like a very hard decision. I have ranted so much here, I can’t seem to get myself to just not have this blog attached to my name. It’s almost a person to me… sigh

So I am still debating. To do, or not to do. Should I just end it on a high, or me not writing much, is just a phase?

Sigh!

100 days

More than 100 days ago I was anything but excited about the 100 days that were in front me that combined uncertainty with boredom.

100 some later, all I am is excited about how I am just 3 days away from my dream to kick start.

In a span of 100 days, I have learned to not be a college student and anticipate being a workaholic. I have learned to accept the fact that growing up is inevitable, but ultimately it’s how gracefully and efficiently you deal with it, rather than run from it.

In 100 days I have learnt how so many things and people just leave you when college does. I have learned to be even more stronger, self-time appreciator and a dreamer.

In 100 days I have read about people who made a difference, who created big things out of nothing, all with an idea and some will.

In 100 days I have learned I don’t want to be in college anymore, I want to face the world, and hopefully make some difference.

In 100 days, I have truly graduated.

I don’t know if I want to be a billionaire, but this song right here, speaks my mind. I know it aint coming easy, but who’s scared of the work?