It’s spring break. (Last break of my college life). And I have way too much time on my hands. And so I am spending it by watching the music videos that ruled the 90’s in India.
One thing that so many of them had in common was the backdrop of school, and falling in love at 16. And so obviously I am thinking about the time when I was 16 and carefree.
I can’t help but think how carefree I used to be. To love someone was so instinctive and thought free. There was so much “cuteness” (for the lack of a better word) in them. Those glances. Just getting to talk once to that one person. Meeting in between classes. Talking on the phone (no cell phones then by the way). And all those small things, that do not even exist when you are older.
Those were the times when everyone believed in fairy tales. Boys did everything to just get a girls attention. They wrote letters (I did not grow up with emails either), saved pocket money to go on dates. Just holding hands and walking down the road seemed enough.
It was all about what you felt. How the other person made you feel. A little special. A little happy. Curfews made seeing each other so much more difficult. There was this excitement.There were no excuses. There was those butterflies. There were no responsibilities. It used to be all out of a book.
It’s amazing how all that seems so long ago. There are so many things that go into doing anything. What will people think? How will this affect life? Money? Nothing is spontaneous.
Sometimes I wish I could go back there and just love like that. Without thinking too much about it. Just be carefree.
Sigh!
For now, those days is all I can think of…
And for some reason this song…
4 comments:
Hahahahaha! I am not 16, but I still love like that. =P
I still fly in the air with his one smile for me. It still excites me to the core. I still feel butterflies every single day! Just a touch feels heavenly. =D
I am such a kid, Geetika! Hahaha! All my life's "cuteness" is coming out now. =P
hahahahhhahahahha
Well may be its a good thing. But you know those other things like curfews and not being able to talk whenever, and hiding from mommy and daddy... and not thinking about dividing time with life issues and tht person..
That can not happen now :P
Butterflies I'll give you. I had that at 21 too :P
I know what you mean. I still have the "butterflies" thing but I'm just so much more cautious now. I can't love with as much abandon as I did when I was 15, 16 or even 19 :/. But I think it depends on the situation and the people too. Maybe when we meet "that" person, we will just love without stopping to rationalize or doubt.. you never know!
I dont know about that person anymore. I just wanna be able to not think so much...sigh
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