The best thing to do when you are someone like me and who does not have a good control over emotions is to step back a bit and think again.
And when I think after doing that I think more practically and things make more sense to me than they do in the, “moment".” I lived my moment and now that my moment is gone, so much makes mores sense now.
I realize how stupid I can be even after everything is right in front of me. I don’t regret it at all, the moment, none of it. But I see things so much more clearly now and the clarity tells me that I was trying to have something that clearly would make me feel like shit sooner or later…
I did something because I wanted more out of it… and I am glad I was able to do it, but the question in my head is how do some people do it without wanting more? How do they restrict themselves to one thing? How do they differentiate between their wants?
A lot of this confusion probably comes from the fact that I am a girl and I don’t mind knowing what’s more to something unlike men, who well, mostly are scared of that something more….
Anyhoo….
Today, right now, at this very point, things make more sense to me… :))
Hopefully they still will tomorrow as long as I am stepping back and not letting my emotions do the talking…..
Oh btw.. I have become quite honest lately. I mean I was never a compulsive liar, but my honesty is not polite at all, and not helping a lot of causes… sigh
Just had to put it there…
For now… time and distance kick ass!!!
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