Three more days + Song of the day

Just three more days left here in Delhi, and then I go back to my life.

It is going to be a pain to get used to working, and on top of that the back log that is very well gonna kill me. It's scary, but I have to do it.

I slept so much, and ate so much, that going back and cooking will be very sad. But I know, I want to go back, because not doing anything gets to me, and it is slowly getting to me. I need to work, be busy, be occupied. I know I am scared, but I will get in the grove before I know it :)

I will have new roomies (replacements) for three months, and then I have so many events to go to, to plan. Gauri lives in an awesome suite for her internship, and I will visit her. All sounds like a plan, and hopefully should suppress my thinking abilities. Summer, I knew it's gonna be different, it already is so different.

I know I made a to do list sometime back (ahhh my lists) for summer , and I think I can achieve certain points in that now may be.

• The most difficult one has been achieved. I have visited my homeland .. India.
• The Tushar one is doable. So I check that off as well :)..
• Guitar hero.. sigh.. things have changed...
• Bonding with the roomies... well the new ones are friends already. So that's checked :D:D
• DAC's group exercise program is running better. For many reasons. Checked... woohoo

Man.. I am doing good already. Marie is coming soon, so that will be checked too :D:D

(Side Note::::: These 2 weeks did do good. I met someone, I never saw before in a way that I should have.. :).. hopefully that should work out.. hehe)

That someone asked me to believe... I know his lecture will probably not last long unless he keeps on doing it everyday, which he seems to be doing right now.. but at least in this moment.. I believe...

So my song of the day is ....

Being home and some more

Being home after 2 years is like coming to a new world with same old people.

Family and friends are still the same, I shock them more with my behaviour than they do with theirs.

Its HOT like always. Burning hot.

Food still tastes amazing, and inflation is still at its best.

So much has changed, and yet so much has not.

I feel like when I go back, it is going to be a new world again. I know nothing changes in 2 weeks, but somehow it has.

Good things:

I am not angry anymore. I am not mad. I dont care about certain things. I am not upset about them all the time, and I wish all good. No bad wishes or any complaints. Whatever happens, is for the good.

Bad things:

Whenever I think of what happened, I get sad. Feel betrayed, but that fact does not linger in my mind all the time. Which is very good. It's too early to forget, but I think I'll get there eventually.

Home makes me feel how I am living two lives. My friends here think, I am the strongest person they know. They think I move on very fast, I do not take BS and much more.

Friends in Philly think I am EMO. lol. I am overly emotional, get attached to soon, do not move on, and you know all the girly stuff.

Honestly, I do not know which one am I, because both these sets have seen a lot of me. Friends here never see me upset, or complaining about boys or anything (because I dont feel like it, because nothing bothers me), so I guess they are right in their own way.

Friends there.. welll...in the past one year or so.. all they have seen is me being EMO (as they put it), so I can't say they are wrong either. I guess I do have a dual personality, or may be it is just something that happens, unintentionally.