What’s wrong in being Single

If a girl wants to be single for a while (by which I mean 2-3 years), what is wrong in that? Most of my guy friends keep on saying, “You need to date someone. Just be with someone. You have been single for too long.”

I don’t understand why I need to do that? I chose to be myself, and I actually love it. At least for now I do. I never stop myself from meeting new guys, or talking to them, but if I dont get attracted to anyone enough to get in a relationship with them, that is not my fault.

He: What’s wrong with that guy? He likes you

Me: But I dont

He: Why? Try dating him

Me: But I dont feel anything for him

He: TRY!!!

Me: Try and do what? Why the hell should I lead someone on

He: Girls!!!

It’s not about being a girl. It is just about choosing to be happy. And not to sound sad or anything, but after what I have seen some guys are capable of, or just being in love and getting hurt to the point which I did not even know existed, i don't really believe in love.

(I mean there is love, just not for me)

So when I do not believe in something, it is hard to pursue it. May be that will change (even though I do not want it to EVER), but for now I am singe and loving it :)

A sad post

If you have ever read my blog, you know how much I blab about my friends. How much they mean to me, and how much I care.

It just hit me today that when you get too close to them, they have the power to hurt you because they know how to.

How does it feel when they chose someone they met some months ago over you (who has been there for years) while knowing the choice would kill you?

Its at that time you realize YOU failed. Because you put so much trust and faith in a person who was never ready to appreciate it. He kept on pretending that you mean something, but really you were just some time pass to fill some void, which the new person filled.

It just saddens me deeply. Because I have always maintained that I am blessed to have such friends. But may be, I am not. May be I still need to learn a lot. May be I was not good enough.

I say 'I' because this fact is so very true to me for so many reasons. 

I wish I knew better...... too late... late enough to be sorry