One year later

When things are not going so great, and you are desperate to change them and make every bit of your life work in the way you always wanted to, the easiest way (at least for me) is saying, “Next year, this exact same date, things will be different.”

On 23rd Feb 2009, that’s what I probably said to myself, because I definitely wanted things to change. One year later, on 23rd Feb 2010 things are different. Very very different, some of them are not the way I wanted them to be, and some are even better. But even now, even though I am not in a desperate need for a change, I want to say, “On 23rd Feb 2011, things would be even better.”

I don’t remember the last time I wished for things to be the same one year later. There is always a wish for something better, even if there may not be something ‘better'.’

Some people say being content with your life inhibits progress, but does looking forward to a change, to improvement, makes it much better? Honestly, I don’t know. This ‘one year later’ concept does not work all the time. Overall I am so much more at peace one year later, but am I so much more what I wanted to be?

Even today, I want to be where I wanted to be one year ago, I am still not there. Hopefully, I would not write the exact same thing one year later, thinking one year later, it would be better, Because frankly, there won’t be one year laters all the time.

So one year later, I want to not say one year later. I want to say, "this is where I wanted to be today. At the same place. With the some people. With the same job. And most of all, with the same life.