Commitment???

I have read it so many places that college is a time when you will either meet the love of your life, or you will have so many disappointments that you may think this is it for you.

I won’t say I have had a lot of disappointments, but I can definitely say that I do think this is it for me. Weird ehh?

There is too much chaos around. Too many people doing things which make me question the existence of loyalty, fidelity and sometimes even friendship. I am trying to be sane and believe all those experiences I have read and heard of. People always say it all changes after college. There is more commitment to be seen. But is that really true?

At this point in time commitment is a huge thing for me. I don’t even know how can someone be so sure about the rest of their lives (well I know I am contradicting myself from a year ago, but shit happens). I have friends who are getting engaged or married, and I think to myself HOW?

I can’t even imagine being with someone right now, leave alone committing. It is a scary thought to me. I don’t know how do people know at 22 or 23 that the person they are with is the same person they want to be with forever. Forever is way too long. In 5 years of college I have seen so many people just fall out of love or commitment or friendship, I don’t even know how do you think of a forever?

I have to attend weddings of friends who I grew up with. They are all excited and thrilled to take the plunge. And I just don’t understand how. How do you give so much of yourself to someone (I mean I know how, but I don’t know how to now).

Basically if I was talking to some Indian, all I would want to say is, “yaaaarrrr.. ye log itna commitment kaise detein hai???”